| No.73 "if your love is a bird you must learn to fly" by Goerge(1/1/2009) |
Dear Rin, Your letter, like a good cup of tea, warms my heart. It is true that I miss your letters very much in the long silence, but out of it was born a good thing. I learned to seek you in the silence of my heart. I am so happy you like the painting. It is one I have most feeling for. She may be holding a baby- that is her secret. The color Red is something of the heart. In your painting “breathe” maybe you see that in me. Your bird, white and flying amongst rays of colors, hope and peace, may we find it in the new year. My eye falls on it constantly through the day. It reminds me: Thank you for helping me to fly. Did I really say ‘I want to be a baby’ in answer to three questions? It all happened so fast. My mind was blank-I chose things in the room-first things to come to mind. Perhaps it doesn’t matter how the words are chosen in response to ‘three questions’ but he words themselves. If this is my last thought, lucky me, because I think I must come again, and if I must, it is most fortunate to want to. I have not always wanted to be here. I know 2008 has been strange year for you. So much ‘inside’ and like the egg, who knows what is going on but you? It was not easy to speak of but I am happy we were able, then I understood. Tell me, what is ‘re-turn’? Have you come to a previous way of thinking? Or seeing? This year was a hard year. Hard to see my mother suffer-struggling to be born into the next world. Her loss was deeply felt. On the other hand no time was more prolific for painting. I feel I have done something I needed to do and it is good to get it done. Thank you for the little bird and the poems, Ryokan, I can see he is a good friend of yours. I like him very much. My wish is forming, hard to put into words but it is like your white bird, glowing into the future. Love and Peace, George P.S. Thank you for your thoughtfulness to apologize for the silence but I don’t think there was any fault. It is best to be honest in your own heart. You honor me in your integrity. P.S.S. Response: ”If your love is a bird, you must learn to fly” |