| No.69 Response to "SOUL" / "My Brain" from George (09/09/2008) |
| Dear Rin, Now I think of you I Japan. I have been reading about ancient Japan. I will collect these thoughts and save them until you get back to California, otherwise there would be a stack of letters. The way you do with the ink is thrilling for me. When I see it, it is experience. The movement very expressive. Response to: “My Brain” ….What mind sees, that it is. Response to: “Soul” …Rising, falling, spinning, weaving---- What is before is also after, up also down. Be confident in all directions. Maybe I told you this story before? This morning I was hoeing up weeds. “Why am I doing this? At my age? Why no ambition?” Then I thought (Please see what I am thinking, as you say, ‘under the beneath’) “Age is just another trick of mind. Actually, just here, now, doing this. Why?” Then I remember a long time ago. Maybe it comes from lifetimes ago because it was one of those moments that something happens, more real than an event in outer world, an inner event. I was eighteen years old. I applied for an open exhibit (I mean open to anyone) what they call a juried exhibit at Long Beach Art Museum. They had this once a year for many ears and it drew entry application from not just Long Beach but the whole area. Several of my paintings were accepted and one of them won ‘Honorable Mention’. A professor from the Long Beach State College Art Department had his paintings refused. He was furious and raising hell about it that this young upstart (me) had paintings accepted while his were refused. I remember the moment standing on the lawn in front of the museum. It just came over me with a feeling of dread and like peering through a hole in the universe; the thought feeling was “ This is all wrong. Ugly!”. What I didn’t realize in that moment (even though there was the intimation of it) was the extent to which I had turned against the grain of the whole of western culture. Why do I do that? I don’t think the story is really about the professor. He just had his problem. But it was a set up to point out to me something out of balance. I fell the hollow place in the universe. Still contemplating “crow” and “crossing”. Now I think I must be quiet and get this package ready for mailing. Very eager to hear about Japan and hope to see you soon. Love and Peace, George |
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