| Dear George, Hi, how are you? I told you I would not be able to write for a while, but here I am writing to you. I think it’s a little funny when the prediction for the future did not work like this. Thank you very much for the book of Rudolf Steiner. It was so wonderful to see you and was just the right time. I must have talked so much on that day. I have lost my voice (literally!) ever since I said goodbye to you. I am surprised myself that my wanting to tell you was so strong. I talked and talked like a waterfall, didn’t I? I have been through so much and I am not sure how to explain. It was like a hatch. It accelerated after facing my long time addiction. I no longer could deny what happening inside of me. It was like realizing that I did not need the old glasses to see the world. It was like realizing that I did not need the carrot front of me to keep myself running. Yes, I lost my voice but I am grateful. I am still in adjustment for this new ‘everything’. Knowing you give me a confidence of what I have found is real. Yes, I am at last back to painting. Thank you, George. Every phenomenon occurred from the emptiness, then come through my body to become. I am just like a path for them. Feeling them makes me smile. Hope all is well with you. PS:I hear your wordless murmur. Do you hear me too? Love&Peace, Rin |
No.46 "I Lost my voice, but grateful" by Rin(04/15/2008) |