No.45 "What will it be this time?"
by George(04/11/2008)
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Dear Rin
I believe you are right to say that it is time that we learn about each other.
For two years now we have responded spontaneously to our inner lights (and
I do hope we will always) this is what is in the first Arcanum of the Magician.
The magician is the key to the major Arcanum of the Tarot. It is the pure
activity. In Marseille deck he wears a hat like so the lemniscates which you
chose in the beginning with our 8x8.
The next card is the high priestess. She is sitting quietly holding a book. This
the receptive: gnosis—the beginning of knowledge or the first form of
knowledge.
So I want to tell you about myself but in a way from the Magician (because
every thing between us has been magical), but in a Meditative way to receive
what comes down from that realm in pictures which contain not just data but
reflections of hat is trying to happen in this life.
Of (so called) George,
The first reflection is on my birth. Naturally there is no conscious memory but
there is evidence of something that happened there that crept under my skin
and remains there to this day.
The doctor who was in charge had a plane to catch and he was trying to hurry-
up the birth so that he would not be late.
To this day I hate to be late or have time constraints or (you’ve noticed other
peculiarities) generally speaking do not like our overly technical overly time
oriented society. Could it really all go back to that moment? Well, perhaps that
moment was just the first manifestation of this karma (no point in wasting
time, I suppose, I getting to the point of ones wrestling match and birth is as
good of place as any to start). It also points to something else which is life-
long. The way of learning through primary direct absorption of experience. It
often takes me a very long time to develop a concept for what I know trough
experiences. It is as if I came to earth without a rulebook or chart or compass
in order to experience for myself and make up my own mind about things.
So what I will have to tell you of is a life full of errors. It is not a pretty picture,
as they say, although sometimes it is.
One thing you said- when you talk to me in your head it is so close- it is like
you are talking to yourself- and then you said, ‘I am talking to Myself’.
Rin, I say, yes, yes, yes-it is so true- the same for me- on the one hand you
are you and on the other like an oracle for me- a fountain and when I am
preparing to meet you or receive a letter.
I anticipate: ”What will it be this time?”
Something magical and it is the same with the inner conversation. I feel it
goes out on the airwaves and in someway reaches you. Much of the time it is
a wordless murmur of the heart.
The other day as you were leaving- even as we were walking- I already felt
that inner emptiness we spoke of.
Well there-we’ve gotten to year one.
Love and Peace,
George